A mixed bag of emotions

Why all of sudden my point of view about life changed? why i see it as too short to live? why i feel everything in this world is going to vanish? May be i have become psychic but then i need to through these feelings anyhow. Or i guess, i need to be enlighted. Life has never been so
confusing ever.
May be the time has come for me to decide. If you want to get out of this illusionary cycle of life and death, you got to decide boy.
Ok, where could be this place? again a question. God! you got to enlighten me. A question against a question, everything is becoming as confusing as life these days.
Help me to know how to live in this materialistic world where everything is transient. Why so much has changed inside me?
I can live here as others are but to me, this idea seems so vague. Should i live it my way? by making it eternal, a rollercoaster ride, a joyride, a wonderland. Save me hallelujah!.

Few lines has come into my mind from Matrix, excerpts:
"MORPHEUS: You take the blue pill and the story ends. You wake in your bed and you believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill and you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes."

Red pill all the way...